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Long time no write. I think I'm unconsciously phasing out my "blog" (still hate that word!!). I have so many other things on my mind lately with trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life and all. Also Patrick and I are back and forth with talks of moving in together at the end of the year. The whole thing makes me feel very anxious. I change my mind on the matter every five minutes. I love my apartment and I love living alone. I love my neighborhood, I love my proximity to convenient transportation and Prospect Park. However, I also love Patrick and I suppose us moving in together would make sense if our relationship continues in a good way until the end of the year. We will have been together for over two years at that point. But having just broken up a few months back and still not feeling like we're entirely stable (is any relationship entirely stable?) is also making me feel a bit hesitant. Arg. This is a really difficult decision! In other news, my Anatomy & Physiology class is going very well; I got a 96 on my first test and a 100 on the second. I have my third test tomorrow and the final is next week. Then on to the Summer II Session for Statistics! Awesomest summer ever. I helped throw a departy (departure party) for my co-worker John on Thursday. We were all very said to see him go; he's a really cool guy. But off to PA school he goes. He's actually the one who lit a fire under my ass to go back to school so I don't spend the rest of my life at the eye bank. I keep going back and forth on whether I should just do the 15-month BS of nursing program as originally planned, a 3-year BS/MS of nursing program (a little more complicated to do financially), or try for a 2-year PA program. They all entail a lot of prerequisites I have to try and cram into a short time to get in by next year. The 15-month BS program has one less pre-requisite than the other two, but I've been told the program is super competitive and I'm not so sure I'd be a shoe-in. The same can be said for the PA program except I'd have to find the time to volunteer for a hospital and/or MD for 50 hours in between taking classes and going to work full-time. For the 3-year program I'd have to take my GREs; one more thing to study for. Did I mention it would take 3 years? At least with the 15-month program (if I got in), I could get a job as an RN when I'm done and go to school for my masters and the hospital may pay for it. Eh, I don't know what I want to do! Or what I'm capable of doing...except going to sleep right now. 06*15*08 I'm taking a little study break. My brain is screaming that it can't retain any more information. But I have a bit more to cram in there, so we'll have to reach some sort of compromise. Perhaps I'll have to get rid of some memorized lyrics to make room for the different types of skin cells. But I've probably got about 80% of the material for my next test down already. I got a 96 on my first Anatomy test! I made the mistake of bragging to my boss about it and she asked why I didn't get a 100. Lesson learned. Also, I got in trouble from my supervisor on Friday for studying at my desk during my lunch break. I usually go in the conference room to study, but I just had a lot of papers and books and was using the computer at the same time. It's just odd that he's been ok with me doing crosswords at my desk or surfing the internet at my desk during my lunch break for the past three years, but then when I'm doing something worthwhile it's forbidden. I suspect it had more to do with pulling his weight to give an order than it did with what I was doing. My Anatomy classmates are, for the most part, still really annoying and seemingly unintelligent...or at least what they say out loud is unintelligent. Sometimes I feel like banging my head against the desk when they talk. I try to sit near the quiet kids, but when people have something unintelligent to say, it seems that they want everyone to hear it. This is my favorite remark thus far: "There's a way to remember this, but I forget what it is." Then why are you talking!? Then of course there's a girl who acts like she knows everything because she's already taken the class but has to take it again for some reason. She's almost more annoying than the rest of them. We had a friendly chat one night and I thought maybe I judged her too harshly, but then she was back on my shit list by the next night with her know-it-all comments. For someone who knows everything, it's odd that I scored about 10 points higher than her on the first test; take that! My friend's wedding last week was nice; very extravagant. I realized I'm not a huge fan of Greek music/dancing, but thankfully that didn't comprise the whole reception. Maria looked gorgeous though and her and Chuck looked very happy, which makes me very happy for the both of them. Alex and Brett finally met Patrick and said they loved him. Brett and Patrick are even e-mail friends now. I had an ok birthday. Patrick took me out to dinner after class and then surprised me with some desserts at his place that he stuck candles in and then sung happy birthday to me. The day after my birthday I treated myself to some new clothes. Otherwise not much else happened. I wasn't really disappointed though because I didn't expect anything of this birthday for once. Ok, back to studying...maybe. 06*04*08 Tomorrow's my birthday! What did you get me? There's still time! I started my Anatomy and Physiology class at BMCC on Monday. Basically I work from 8 to 4 then have class from 5:45 until 9:15 from Monday to Thursday. It pretty much sucks. The good news is I did manage to get off from work tomorrow to Monday, so I'll have time to squeeze some much needed studying in. The bad news is I can't stand my classmates; I haven't had to deal with so much stupidity since I was a freshman at John Jay. I also have that wedding to go to on Saturday for an old college classmate of mine. Patrick and I are driving to upstate NJ with Alex and her husband and staying in a hotel until Sunday morning. I'm excited to wear my pretty new dress, but not so excited about everything before and after the reception. I don't have too much planned for my birthday, except Patrick is taking me out to dinner after my very late class ends. He bought me a new bike on Sunday. I had a mental image of my ideal bike and had looked in a bunch of places and couldn't find it. However, when we went to a flea market in Fort Greene, I spotted it right away and knew it was the one. It's a vintage 10-speed Fuji. It's very light, it's blue and it's mine! Yippee!
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